What I got from this is you are unable to give anything but a nonsensical account of how life comes from non life so you are flouncing before everyone realises what a bellend you are. Like the band hiding in the bus depot, it seems you are still there at least existentially.
As for the rest of your ravings, I can see you want them to go unanswered so you can imagine some sort of win for your narcissistic supply so I will let you have that rather than damage your clearly fragile and fractured ego any further.
It is clear that something or someone hurt you during your formative years. Hopefully you haven't paid that forward to your progeny even though you have failed to deal with it yourself.
Watch the door on the way out, it swings back violently.